Miss you forever, but hold you close in my heart each day.I long for the conversations we never were able to have, and replace them with one sided chats as I run along in the sun, knowing you are sitting right there on my shoulder.
My dad passed away 24 years ago this week. He had an extremely rare cancer. He was younger than I am now, it barely seems fair, but life never is. I like to think he keeps me safe while I am out running miles and miles. We "chat" inside my head on those runs, though it is one sided, I know he hears me.
While my dad passed away from cancer, I have a younger sister who also developed a rare type of cancer as a young adult. It was also a very scary, horrible cancer. Though I can't begin to imagine how scary it was for her. Unlike my dad, she is here, so many years later, strong, smart and beautiful. And I am forever grateful to know she sets her feet on the ground each and every day.
I signed up to have the chance to run the NY marathon next year. I will be put in a lottery of people and will not know if I am chosen until next April. If I am, I plan to run in memory of my father, and in honor of my sister, hopefully being able to raise money along the way for sarcoma research.
I run to be strong, but I am inspired to run by others who may have never run a whole mile. Instead they have shown me a strength much stronger.
Yes, this means you my dear sister ...and for anyone else who may have a question in their mind, as to whether I am speaking of them..I probably am.
and to my dearest angel..you are never forgotten.
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5 comments:
This is beautiful.
It's really great of you honoring both of them.
I hope you get your name picked and get to run. I do as you do and have conversations with my mother (whom I lost last year to cancer) in my head, but in my mind she answers me or even is the voice in my head as I walk through the isles at the grocery. It makes me feel as though I still have a connection with her, but I seriously may be going mad. I miss her terribly. I long to have her arms around me again and see her sweet smile and hear her contagious laugh. I'm so glad you still have your sister. Cancer is the devil.
Keep having your runs with your dad, there's no better a guardian angel. and keep your beautiful and insightful posts coming.
beautiful photo and touching tribute to your family members.
inspiring!!!!!!!!!
i would love to sponser you when you run the ny marathon (because i know you will be chosen)
Beautiful post!They live always in our heart and mind:)
Touching and heart rending story. Gorgeous, incredible photo.
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