Our own island

We went camping last weekend.
It was a mix of sun and drizzle for most of the time.
It was also the first time my husband and I had ever been camping together..
finally I had convinced him to go!
What a nice change of scenery it was, though only a hop, skip and a jump from our home.
We put our new tent up, which ended up taking three people..and a included a few.."Just forget it...I am sleeping in the truck!" phrases..But we did it!
Next time will be a piece of cake, right??
The beach at the campsite was flooded, leaving little islands of sand here and there.
We dragged our beachwear and coolers through the swampy areas to reach our own little piece of paradise. And paradise it was..
An excuse to just stand around all day and watch the waves..to sit with my toes in the soggy sand and watch
boats going by, while our friend's children ran giggling and screaming through the sand and water.
Just what I needed..to have absolutely nowhere to go..
and nothing to do.

This was my reward for being up at the crack of dawn the other week..or in other words..4 am. I didn't have to be to work until almost 7. Needless to say I set out early with my camera and saw one of the most gorgeous views..these fields had such lovely rays of sunshine streaming through the morning air. I took lots and lots of pics of them. The out line of the mountains was visible in most of them. Just lucky to start my day that way...
It just happens that I am hope with a nasty cold today..it is beautiful and warm out, but am staying low for a while inside. Luckily I have photos to play with!

If Only

If only
a tree could stand tall forever
If only heartbeats stayed young,
our minds always clear..
If only the best day of your life never ended,
and the worst day of your life never began...
Would your world be that perfect place...
If grass never died,
and our earth never shook
If childhood was always happy..
and sadness were absent from every stories end..
Would our souls ever stretch
beyond what we could possibly imagine...
yet never know, if only.

Books about the afterlife taunt me from my nightstand..
piles of four or five of them at a time.
Dreams visit me at night..with so much symbolism being open to my interpretation.
Questions and scenes go through my head, longing
for what is lost pulls at my heart.

In the past three months I have read countless books about the possibility of life after death.
Once convinced..I now need convincing.
I must tell you I have had some very strange things happen to me since my mom died.
Though I will not tell you right now.
I will tell you..that two books that sort of helped ME the most were "The Afterlife Expirements"
by Gary Schultz and "Lessons from the Light" by George Anderson. If I had not read "The Afterlife Expirements" first, I would not have been ready for the second book by George Anderson. I don't as of yet have answers, but I don't think we are meant to..my nature is to keep looking..and I will continue to do that. I am doing ok though...though my life still feels quite empty without her..I guess that emptiness will always exist..as she is never coming back...but I am ok. Ok..with a different meaning than it had before.

My Emerald City

There are things in this world that I am so happy I am able to see.
One being the gentleness of horses as they quietly reside in a field...

Another is the color green..
I feel like the forest just basks me in it as I walk down our little path out back.

There is something so serene about it.

It truly feels like my own emerald city.

I feel like I am given a small piece of heaven for just a few
fleeting moments each spring..