The storm

It was a dark and viciously strong storm, winding it's way across hearts and souls, leaving a path of horrific destruction..


For the past year so much has been going on in my life. Besides the obvious that I write about here, there have been other things that have been difficult for me. They have been right beside me every moment of this year, with every breathe of my grief. Coping with the greatest loss of my life thus far, and a path that has led to the destruction of much that I hold dear, has been scarring to say the least.
A downward spiral, it has been. A little voice in the back of my head has been tugging at my heart, telling me to watch it or I may just lose it all. And I, indeed, have lost a lot.
Unsettled is a word I would use to describe how I have often felt. The more clarity I gain, the more I realize what I have destroyed, almost single handed.
I am however, responsible for my own thoughts, my own actions. In saying that, I have decided to make some changes in life. This is one thing, maybe the only thing at the moment, that gives me a feeling of peace. Perhaps because I know it is the right thing. I am looking forward to the changes it can bring. At the same time looking back on the losses and hurtful things that have brought me to a crossroad.
Perhaps this will lessen the dull emptiness that keeps creeping through my uneasy soul.